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COUNTDOWN COUNTER

2011-07-12T00:11:00.007+08:00

Birthday-Countdowns

ONLINE SHOPPING!

2011-07-11T23:08:00.004+08:00

been addicted to online shopping recently. bought alot of things! ♥

some of the list of things that i bought :)

FUJIFILM INTAX MINI 25s

OPI BLACK SHATTER

there are still more items.. however... there is too many!

i love my friends!

2010-04-15T21:34:00.002+08:00

i know i haven been blogging...
been occasionally emo-ing...

sometimes i dun really feel like going to work..

however recently..
im really looking forward to see my fellow minions=)
im really having fun working with them..

i love my friends..
all of them!!!

i know i also haven been spending enuff time with them...
so now.. i got a wake up call!
i gotta spent more time with them,
coz afterall i love them :)

recently im trying to change...
change for the better...

my friends give mi some time..
give mi your support and you will see a better mi...
i promise :)

Friendship

2010-01-03T22:04:00.001+08:00

friendship nv last...

i really feel like maybe we are nt tt close n tt...
with friends like u, who needs enemies...
im just feeling sad...

2010-01-01T15:05:00.002+08:00

hihi, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!!!
how did u celebrate the last day of 2009???

wad did i do?
i went out with my 2 bbfs and mike =D
yst was awesome, tho not as fun as last wk..

however, i dun tink mike was having fun..
somehow, i felt he was feeling awkward..

we went arnd sentosa...

the 4d was funny..
i was almost laughing tru out the whole show..
the certain 4d element caught mi by surprise...
and it made mi laugh...
the shoot game thingy(dun know its name)
was not really tt fun

but seeing kt's, joelin's and mike's face on the screen makes mi laugh...

the fireworks were awesome!!!!
really like it...
we practically had to run up to the rooftop to see it...
AWESOME!!!!

really hope mike had fun yst...

superficial beings

2009-12-29T19:10:00.002+08:00

Stop look at things on the surface will ya??

we are juz friends and he is jux only cute...
haix...
juz coz im close to him means i like him..
wtf...

im speechless...

2009-12-26T20:53:00.001+08:00

2009-12-25T11:21:00.004+08:00

im so glad things turn out great yst...
everyone includ. mike had fun =)

well... afterall he is the 'tourist'

it was a fun and different xmas eve...
hope next wk will be as fun =)

ohya.. to those tt went.... thanks man!!!

u guys are mean! dint even let mi take a photo alone with him =(

2009-12-24T21:11:00.001+08:00

MUMMY's going to day shift starting next month!!!!

OMG!!! im freaking happy=))

hmmmm... but adjusting my body clock might be difficult...
the 1st wk of changing back to the day shift might tough for mi...
i probably would be freaking tired..
afterall... i have been in mummy for almost 2mths le lo...

i haven been slping much since mon...
i was lost, i was confused..
the thought of it made awake...
im trying to get tt thought out of my mind!

MY jerry

2009-12-20T10:13:00.001+08:00

JERRY YAN IS STILL HOT

2009-10-13T22:09:00.002+08:00

Ever tries threading??

oh yeah... it really kinda hurts the 1st time.

but.. as for me...
i have a pretty high tolerance level for pain.
so..
its ok for me.

and im currently addicted to it.
its fast, easy and alot more efficient then bleaching your facial hair.
tweezing? that's a far more tedious job.

Removing of upper lips hair?
Removing of "stray hairs" around your brows?

i SUPER recommend threading!!!!

juz for your info,
How is threading done?
Practitioners use a pure, thin, twisted cotton thread which is rolled over untidy hairlines, moustaches and so on, plucking the hair at the follicle level. Unlike tweezing where a single hair is pulled out each time, threading can remove an entire row of hair, resulting in a straighter line.

2009-10-10T22:09:00.002+08:00

try watching this... it really seems nice...
i know this is an ongoing show tt has been showing already...
but juz watching it for the 1st 10 mins...
it really seems interesting...

Happiness

2009-09-21T15:37:00.001+08:00

MOVIE 9

2009-09-20T17:13:00.003+08:00

STORY: A post apocalyptic fantasy nightmare in which humanity's legacy is threatened. Takes place in a parallel universe, where a race of oppressed rag dolls fights for survival.

looks cool but then... when i watch it... i dint really like it... =(

kinda saddening.... coz i kinda tot it might be nice

moreover.. its not showing in several cinemas... for gv... only vivo and ps...

Love is..

2009-09-19T15:46:00.003+08:00

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
—I Corinthians 13:4-8a (NIV)

Cute cats, kittens

2009-09-18T16:09:00.000+08:00

cats/kittens... my bf fav...

why he likes them????

coz he finds them cute...

What Sign Should I Be With?????

2009-09-03T17:16:00.006+08:00

You Should Be With a Water Sign

Your best match is a Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces.

You crave intimacy and connection in your relationship. A water sign can open up to you.

And while you like to be bonded to your partner, a relationship with a water sign won't be all soul gazing.

A water sign matches your goofy sense of humor, as well as your desire to help others.

guess wad???? my bf is a pisces... talk about perfect match =)

2009-08-18T23:07:00.007+08:00

i know this entry is late...

but i had to blog it...
coz i still love jerry yan =)

After 5 yrs..
Jerry Yan is releasing his 2nd album entitled EXTRA FREEDOM.
As usual this time, there will be 2 covers too (juz like his previous album)

plus...

he also sang in jap=)

so nice...

dun believe hear it for yourself =)

2009-08-17T02:15:00.005+08:00

was watching last wk RAW.

WOOHOOOO....

miss watching it..

used to watch it years ago...

den stopped watching ever since i went poly..

coz no time watch..

and frankly...

it still rocks..

except of the fact tt, there were several new peeps i dun know..

but chris jericho is still there =)

so is randy orton...

but chris lost his pecs=(

BELOW IS RANDY ORTON..

MY NEW FAV..

HE IS FREAKING HOT...

2009-07-03T19:22:00.001+08:00

WORD OF THE DAY : Hypochondriasis
MEANING: refers to an excessive preoccupation or worry about having a serious illness. Often, hypochondria persists even after a physician has evaluated a person and reassured them that their concerns about symptoms do not have an underlying medical basis or, if there is a medical illness, the concerns are far in excess of what is appropriate for the level of disease.

2009-07-03T19:17:00.000+08:00

been addicted to doin quiz..

dun know why also...

2009-07-03T19:13:00.000+08:00

You Are a Fighter

You are stubborn to a fault, but you can't help it.
It's your way or the highway, and you're ready to fight.

While it may feel good to be the one who's always right, your friends don't see it that way!
Compromise a little. Show more love. It will get you further in the long run.

2009-06-21T10:49:00.003+08:00

hmmmm.. today sunday...

my parents are finally back...
oh..
dint i mentioned they went overseas without mi???

i know..
its sad...
i was home all week.
'bored to death'

haha...

not really lah...

i had a nice time enjoying life w/o parents...
esp my mum nagging...

it was a nice fun wk..

best of all...
it ended off with 2 bags...

yeah...
my daddy and mummy bought...
a burberry blue label and prada milano bags...

(i so wanted a burberry blue label since i last saw one in tampines second hand branded bag shop)

woohooo..
im a happy girl...

my daddy was like going on.. and on.. and on...
on how expensive the prada bag is...
and cause of how ex it was...
he was giving it to mi for my bday present which was months later...

haix...

2009-05-29T19:57:00.003+08:00

oh yeah!

i finally got my dip!!!
my 3 yrs of slp-less night is finally over!!!
as in finally finally over...

whoo... hooo...

frankly i was super nervous..
my heart was practically pounding when i standing at the side of the stage.
hai...

every1 there was like telling mi to calm down.. relax..
but then i cant...

i fear many stuff...
like i might trip halfway while walking,
like take foto.. make some accidental stuff..

i was nervous...

~~gah..

DETs complaining tt i look like small girl..

when about to collect my dip. on stage.

EVIL PEOPLE...

why does every1 says im small girl..?

im really happy my parents made time to take a whole day off their work to go my grad show.

=)

my dad was like so bz..

even during the reception(food eating time)

he had to talk on his fone...

talk talk talk...

hai...

even had to rush go hm get some stuff for his work..

hai

but im happy

(post i forgot to publish)

Angels and Demons

2009-05-22T22:31:00.003+08:00

went to watch angel and demon today...

missed the beginning part,

coz the quene at the snark bar was damn long..

and all i wanted to buy was just a cup of lemon tea.

i was freaking thirsty.

haix.

next i wanna watch...

Plot:
Christine Brown (Lohman) is a hard-working bank loan officer with a good life. With a promotion up in the air between her and another employee, her boss says she needs to demonstrate she can make "the hard calls". When Mrs. Ganush, an elderly Slavic woman, asks for a third extension on her mortgage, Christine denies her in an attempt to prove herself. In desperation, Ganush prostrates herself before Christine, begging and kissing the hem of her skirt. As a crowd of customers and employees gathers, Christine panics and shoves the woman away, gravely insulting her. That night, Ganush, enraged and humiliated, exacts revenge by placing a curse upon Christine. Christine learns from a psychic that she is to be tortured for three days by a demon called the Lamia before being dragged into hell to burn for eternity. Thus, Christine begins a race against time to save her soul from damnation.

any1 interested?

2009-05-22T22:26:00.002+08:00

sometimes i feel...

im over 20,
i have to pay my fone bills,
find a powerful job,
work and earn $,
spent the $ i earn on necessities..
use the $ i earn to survive.
(other than the fact tt im living with my parents,
practically everything i need, i have to use my own $..
shampoo, food, transport, movie, medical bills.... etc...)

no more $$ from daddy.
*boohoohoo

is this how a 20 yrs old should be?
i know i should nt be complaining so much..
but i juz dun understand.
do i really have to take so much responsibility?
im only 20. or goin to be 20..

yet.. i feel so old..

2009-05-22T22:21:00.003+08:00

Am i losing my friends...

or...

Am i tinking too much?

haix...

2009-05-17T01:24:00.002+08:00

went out with sabbie and her friends.

i guess it was pretty fun..

oh... and im tan..
(hope i dun get sun burn)

weehee...

=)

call mi blackie.
=)

lol...
guess im not tt black/dark

hmmm...
sab's fren are funny..

and sabbie...
i tink i know who u like le...

haha

2009-05-16T02:14:00.002+08:00

watched star trek...

guess it seems normal to mi lo...

really wanna watch angel and demon

any1 wanna watched tt?

msg mi =)

tgt watch

2009-04-25T03:24:00.002+08:00

sadness filling me..

im nt happy...

cant some1 make mi smile?

juz feel so depressed..

my friends all seem distant...

booo hooo hooo...

boo hooo hooo...

boo hoo hoo..

i hope some1 out there can intro mi a good job with good pay...

i hope my friends wun forget mi wen we have all totally grad..

i hope daddy will change his mind and bring me to holi (nt sure where, prob some other super nice eng country)...*i promise i will be a good girl.daddy

i hope baby will give mi 3 mth...

within 3 mths i will achieve wad i promise you...

i hope i will pro in jap...

i hope i will win 4D and get million of $$$$...

haix.. which of this will come true?

2009-04-20T15:59:00.002+08:00

life...

wad is life?

life is pleasent?

life is fearful?

is death really tt scary?

y do people fear death?

what will you feel, see after you die?

i have been thinking...

pondering...

am i really happy now?

now that i have grad.. wad should i do?

im only 20..

my decisions?

i dun know

2009-03-15T12:29:00.002+08:00

hai..

haven been blogging...
hmmmm...
lazy bahx...

really wanna watch coming soon and Push
but...
a little scared to watch coming soon..
haix..
e trailer seems nice...

recently have been goin out lots...
hmmmm....
probably spent like 300 plus last wk..
hai...
broke..
daddy refuses to give mi $$$..

2009-02-13T15:04:00.001+08:00

its an old song...

but i like it now real lots...

=)

2009-01-30T19:54:00.003+08:00

went out with him some days back..

went out till quite late..

and him..
being a perfect sweetie sent mi hm and took cab back hm...

but tt not wad i wanna blog about..

i wanna blog bout smth tt happened on the way hm.
mi n him was like holding hands..
walking to my hse..

while walking hm..
i saw my ex..
yups.
awkward situation..

immediately..
i let go of his hand..
look down while walking past my ex..
i can jolly well ignore him..
but smhw..
tt was my immediate reaction.

i feel really guilty toward baby
i was just unable to handle tt situation..
baby...

im sorry..

i dun know y i did tt..
but frankly..
i have already gotten over my ex..
and now..
i juz wanna be wif u =)

2009-01-28T15:22:00.003+08:00

if can de hua..

i wanna be with you forever...

im sorry, at times i am ignorant..

im sorry, making you wait for mi..

im sorry, being unreasonable at time..

but..

i feel really comfortable with you..

i wanna hold ur hand forever and ever and stay by ur side 24/7..

i wanna love you lots...

MUACKX !!!!

MUACKX !!!! MUACKX !!!!

MUACKX !!!! MUACKX !!!! MUACKX !!!!

2009-01-22T21:14:00.002+08:00

some pics frm few days back to celebrate mi passing my portfolio mod..

MUACKX.

love him lots..

2008-12-26T22:45:00.000+08:00

ahhhhh... bish*******

2008-12-25T17:37:00.001+08:00

i have watched TWILIGHT...

lol...

its juz average...

hai...

so disappointed lo...

its really not to my expectations
hai

2008-12-17T22:24:00.001+08:00

PICS from 2 wks back..

our dinner at ichiban...

dunno full name..

his treat..

2008-12-14T23:31:00.000+08:00

wanna thank karen for tt brownie..
it was super nice...

and im sorry..
sundays.. im officially not free..

i need a rest day.. n sometimes wif my family..

i hope may n ling had fun w/o mi *sobs*

and wohooo...
finally tml will be mon..

TERM BREAK...
YES!

wahahhaahha...
may or may nt be meeting yun qian in sch tml..
see her lo...

2008-12-13T23:26:00.000+08:00

went to yvonne hse after work..
had a blast there...

her mum was nice..
her dad was funny..

and her hse to preetty dark..
i mean the way frm her hse to the bus stop is so dark..
i cant see anything...

lol...

it was fun there...
really enjoyed myself..

and yvonne..
remember tt promise...
next time u go clubbing..
jio mi arhx...

2008-12-12T09:30:00.001+08:00

today is friday!

YESH!

cant wait for dec 18 for TWILIGHT..

cant wait for x'mas...

hai...

2008-12-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

woohooo!!!

so far i have watched BLOT and THE DAY THE EARTH STOOD STILL...

wahahaha...

left TWILIGHT...

OMG... i so wanna watch twilight...

2008-12-06T16:06:00.000+08:00

KTV fotos are soon to be uploaded...

feeling lazy these few days..

2008-12-05T11:31:00.001+08:00

FOR HIM

FOR THEM [ my friends ]

2008-12-04T11:31:00.001+08:00

MISS YOU REALLY REALLY LOTS...

2008-11-21T23:16:00.002+08:00

i have super many stuff inside mi i wanna tell some1..
many many stuff ii need to let out..

like..
i realise hw much i really like him..
he was always there to make mi smile..
when i needed help, he would try his best to help mi..
i feel really happy with him..
he never made mi feel sad, with him im always smiles...
i like the way he looks at mi with those eyes..
i really really feel loved and cared for with him..

unlike with darling..
i feel really pressurised with him..
i feel comfortable with darling..
really comfortable..
i can tell mi anything..
even the most secret stuff..
but..
there times i really feel i need a cool down period with him..
he nv tries to understand mi, he is always made mi mad or upset..
he puts my work down and never tries to complement mi..
to him, regardless of hw much effort i try..
it means nothing to him..
i hate tt feeling..
being with him..
i feel like im nothing worth mentioning
yes..
i know i sound pretty sad case..
but tt wad i feel..
regardless of how many times he tell mi im impt to him..
i really feel tt.. he does not really care about mi..

maybe tt y i like tt HIM bahx..
im a human and a girl.
i like to be pampered..
i like to be loved..
i like my guy to hug mi tight..
i wan him love mi lots..
tt y i chose him..
coz i feel tt love..
coz i feel im some1 really special and impt to him..
and yups i love tt feelings..

and darling..
i tink we need tt cool down period..
i cant stand tt feeling anymore..
worse come worst..
lets not even be friends..
i tink..
maybe..
i would be happier w/o some1 like you who never seems to appriciate anything i have done.

i know the consequences of posting this up on my blog..
but i really feel i need to let it out..
afterall..
tt happened this fews days..
i really cant keep it all inside mi..

2008-11-21T23:13:00.002+08:00

i did a whole new personalised theme for my hp..
i like tt theme lots..
even though ling said it was too hearts..

hmmm..
wen i showed darling tt theme..
he was like..
" you do it? really? dun lie..."

=)

hmmm..
i really wanna show tt template to him..
MY HIM =)
i wonder what he will say...

2008-11-14T20:51:00.002+08:00

STUPID DARLING!

I HATE YOU LA...

how could u see my blog!!!!

hahas..
anyway i tink u gt ur retribution..
hahas..
er..
i tink my beating beri pain bahx...
hahas...
who ask u...
go read my blog!

=P

o-bi-quack...

no more second time le...

2008-11-12T15:55:00.004+08:00

darling.. i have been tinking..
the stuff u have done for mi..
its definitely not alot..
ok lah..
quite alot..

wad im trying to say is..
sure..
you have done many stuff for mi..
but.. there are pple tt have done even more stuff for mi..
but i aint compare u to them..
coz.. diff pple..
but..
really..
im super grateful and really appriciate it all..
but i juz dun wanna tell you..
coz i cant...
coz darling..
if i tell you how much u mean to mi..
it will be so not mi le..

i know recently..
we have some argument..
and you still tink im always throwing my tantrums and always not appreciating wad u have done for mi..
well..
about tt...
i wanna tell you..
if u understands mi.. know wad i wants.. den give mi wad i wan..
den all will be alright...
hahas..

im sure u know..
i dun like arguing wif you..
it totally affects my mood..
i hate feeling upset...
i hate being mad at you..

i want you to pamper mi lots...
give mi all ur attention..
all ur time...

hahas..
i know im a possessive girl..
beri possessive..
YOU ARE MINE!

and seriously..
do you know..
i treat u really very good..
u ask my ex la..
i nv treat them so good meh..

and darling..
i wanna tell you..
i really dun like pple looking tru my stuff..
i mean..
even my parents or my exs..
dun do tt..
i really wanna tell you tt..
but i dun know how to say...

i know one of these days..
you will surely read my blog..
and hope..
after reading you wil know much good i treat you!

2008-11-12T15:48:00.003+08:00

he told mi..
wen u love sm1..
all you ever think of will be only them
u wun care about looks or anything else..
it will only be them...
you can be yourself.. and tell them anything and everything..
like best friends..
you will tend to do many things you feel will be good for them..
and you just cannot imagine wad will happened to you w/o them..

2008-11-04T23:35:00.003+08:00

can some1 juz kill mi?

oh shit man!
was reading through impressionism..
and in it..
there were many many works frm Paris..
in fact most of them are from Paris..
and the thing is...
they are put up in museum there..

and wad im trying to say is..
i had been to those museum..
and well..
all i did was walk right pass through the works..

i know..
i know...
im to blame...
i super regret it now...

if only i had stood still and closely observe the works done..
it would have been WOW! for mi..
but instead...
when i went to those museums..
i was complaining...
hurry up leave..
its boring in here...

i told my dad about it..
he said..
well... that why i brought you there...
but u dint appricate it..
it was supposed to be a learning experience for you...

i super hate tt feeling of regret now!
shit man!
and now when i tink of it..
i really should hab stand still and admire the works there..
probably coz the tix to enter the museum there is ex..
cant remember how much..

but it definatly ex..
around 20 to 30 euro..
which is s$40 to s$60

argghhhh...
Musee d'Orsay
i really went there..
but dun remember seeing those works!!!

2008-11-04T15:00:00.003+08:00

heys!

hi =)

i know i haven't been going out with you guys or any1 else..
i juz dint feel like it..
i juz wanted to stay at home and lie on my bed..
and probably watch taiwan and jdramas..
and oso play his psp?

i dun know wads happening to mi now..

seriously..
i rather stay at hm surfing the net den go out and shopping...

maybe coz im broke..
coz sometimes i juz seems to have no control over my $..
it juz disappears so quickly!
hah..

this time i will spent my $ more wisely.

and girls..
lets go out sometimes..

and i wanna tell him something..
darling.
pls eat lunch.
dun starve urself to get enuff $ to go out wif mi..
seriously..
darling.
i dun mind eating mos burger tooo..
dun nid eat exp food always...
and when i have $...
i will treat u too =)

2008-11-04T14:46:00.004+08:00

im feeling downright SUPER guilty..

i wanted a desktop..
y?
no reason coz i wanted it..
and probably to do my works..
coz some programs juz seems laggy wen using it on my lappy.

i told my dad..
and now i gt one desktop and a lappy..

y am i guilty?
coz this desktop is all mine..

my dad has one in his computer room..
my sis has one in her room..
my bro has his laptop..
my mum shares my dad desktop while my dad uses his lappy..

but the point is i now have a desktop and a laptop.
and i wan both...
but one seems like a liability...
and oso..
my dad took a day off just to go shopping for my desktop..

ARGHH!
i cant handle the guilt..
i juz feel spoilt asking for a desktop..
juz becoz..
i wanted something better..

my dad got rid of my previous desktop coz i told him i wanted a lappy..
and he spent $2500 on my lappy.. at tt time..
and now i wanted a desktop!

did i mention tt time i wanted a hard disk..
my dad got mi one and passes it to mi the next day..

gosh!
and i know wad u are thinking..

blame mi for being spoilt!
demanding!

and yes!
i regret it!
and daddy!
i love you lots!
THANK YOU!

for you...
i will work even harder for my assignment..

2008-10-29T21:59:00.003+08:00
baby..

dun like this...
i really dun like you like dat..
do u know how lost and helpless i was yst?
do u know how much i wanted to tok to u?

hai...
i know u feeling down this few days..
but dun keep everything to urself la..
dun emo la...
i really feel helpless...
its like i cant make u smile anymore..

thx for explaining everything to mi today morning..
i know...
i know how u feeling..
i know u dun wanna put ur stuff on mi..
i know u dun wanna fent ur fustration on mi..
i know u dun wan mi to feel unhappy..
but..
dun u get it..
with u being so like this.. so emo...
how can i be happy?

ahhh..
i dun like how im feeling right now..
i wan u to be happy..
i wanna lighten ur burden..
but sometimes..
i feel..
im adding more unhappiness to u..

hai..
shit man..
i tink im gonna lose it..
school's assignment is stacking up..
and i cant cope..
there is still my part time job outside which i cant quit...
coz im broke..
there is u..
my biggest 'worry'
my happiness i mostly based on how much u care about mi..
now.. u locked urself up for fear u might vent ur fustrations on mi..
u left mi helpless..
totally no confidence in doin my work..

yups!
its all u!
i dun like it..
i tink i really goin crazy!
school assignment is really piling up fast..

2008-10-24T22:52:00.002+08:00

I WANNA WATCH TWILIGHT!
~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"Twilight" is an action-packed, modern day love story between a vampire and a human. Bella Swan (Kristen Stewart) has always been a little bit different, never caring about fitting in with the trendy girls at her Phoenix high school. When her mother remarries and sends Bella to live with her father in the rainy little town of Forks, Washington, she doesn't expect much of anything to change. Then she meets the mysterious and dazzlingly beautiful Edward Cullen (Robert Pattinson), a boy unlike any she's ever met. Intelligent and witty, he sees straight into her soul. Soon, Bella and Edward are swept up in a passionate and decidedly unorthodox romance. Edward can run faster than a mountain lion, he can stop a moving car with his bare hands – and he hasn't aged since 1918. Like all vampires, he's immortal. But he doesn't have fangs, and he doesn't drink human blood...

OMG! A ROMANCE AND THRILLER!
HEY DARLING!
dun say i dint warn you!
im gonna force you to watch it with mi!
coz i got a feeling its really nice!

2008-10-24T21:10:00.002+08:00
y is it everytime something happens...
the 1st person i tink of is you...
the 1st person i wanna discuss everything to, is you...

i want you to stay beside mi always.
only you.

its only until yst..
tt i realised actually u oso like small boy..
WAHAHAHAHA...

little kid..

im broke!
really broke!
who can help mi?

2008-10-22T23:08:00.002+08:00
i feel that im probaby not feeling the same way as i used to, to you.

sometimes i really wonder..
the stuffs im doin..
is it really worth it..
do u really care..?

i always tell you...
its when you really wanna care about sm1...
tt you can do many stuff for tt special sm1 and nt expecting any return..

but now..
as times pass..
i take back what i said..
i want you to appricate the stuff i've done for you..

becoz im ME...
i nv really need to do anything for any1..
i have this tenancy to get wad i wan..

thus...
its sad to say..
the stuff i did for you seems pretty normal.. simple..
but i really put in effort to do it for you...

i really dun wan you to feel like you are always making mi mad..
i really dun wan you to feel like you are always making mi sad..
but somehow i always make you feel tt way..
the only thing i can say is..
sorry!

2008-10-15T21:33:00.003+08:00
ahhhhh...

i wu hui him again..
lol..
wen he called n explain to mi..
i was like...
oh ok.. hai..
i really tink too much..

im nt goin into details la..
but...

hahahaha...
i dun know hw to say it...
but..
i tink my temper really not good..
i get pissed off easily..
its a miracle tt he can tahan mi so long..
hahaha...

serious lo..
i tink i nid control my temper...
or else...
he might juz... one day.. flare up at mi..

2008-10-15T17:28:00.003+08:00
" The thing about friends with benefits is that, often, only one partner gets all the benefits while the other gets heartbroken. It's the nature of the deal – a friendship with benefits only serves to satisfy the physical needs without the emotional commitment. And because women are pretty much wired to form emotional attachments to men they are intimate with, casual relationships tend to be a bad bargain for the fairer sex.

That's why having friends with benefits can get so confusing: You are emotionally attached to him, believe that he must feel the same about you and so you expect him to demonstrate some level of affection, for example, by being attentive to your feelings and certainly by not being overly friendly with other women. But then you realize he won't even recognize a relationship.

The result: You're hurt and confused. " - extracted frm net

2008-10-15T16:05:00.002+08:00
some stuff i chance upon on the net..

Signs you are just as fine staying as friends:
You have your own click of friends whom you hang out with
You got a few other best friends/buddies whom you can share your secrets with
You don't think of him while you're alone
You feel it's alright to know more male friends
You will let other guys woo you if there's any guys who's courting you right now.
If you have many male suitors; you like one of the other suitors who fancy you as well other than him

Signs you like him:
You often think of him when you're alone at home
While watching Movies, Videos at home, you call out his name naturally without realizing he's not by your side
Have being telling secrets which you kept for years but willingly tell him
Often buying stuffs for him and going out with him
When faced with difficult situation; he's the first choice of person you will contact
You miss him the moment he leaves you/sent you back home

2008-10-14T06:23:00.003+08:00
i just want to be tt NO1 in ur heart.

i want to be the one to share ur joy.. ur tears..

i want you to feel tt tinge of jealousy wen i show you tt msg-es those guys send mi..

i want to be on ur mind every so often..

i want you nt to keep everything to urself..

i want you to nt always just worry about mi..

i want you to take care of urself...

i want you to understand mi more..

i want to hear ur voice every nite b4 i sleep...

i want you to never leave mi..

and yups i know wad you wan too..

i'll try la.. try to be:

- more understanding..
- gentle..
- nt so hot tempered..
- care more bout u
- nt to do so last min work
- to put in more effort in doing my work
- nt late... (haha.. i know everytime i meet u.. i will be alittle alittle bit late)

2008-10-14T03:54:00.006+08:00
Recently i find it hard to talk to him..
i guess there is really a day i would run out of stuffs to talk to him..
haha..
we?
we talk on the phone everyday =)
between 1-3 hrs a day bahx...
coz we dun see each other everyday ma..

now my holis end le..
how to go out wif him?
haix..

i really happy.
he always make it a point to call him after his work.
really lo..
every 5.30 plus i will search for my hp and place it beside mi..
waiting for his call...
he?
every wk end after my work..
i will call him..
and im sure tt silly boy stays by his hp the whole day..

coz regardless of the time i call him..
whether its during my lunchtime or after work..
he answers it before 3 rings...

haha...

i oso wanna thank him for being so good to mi la...
he often make it a point to at least go out wif mi once a wk...
even wen times he was super super bz lo...
=)

becoz im super hot tempered and a spoilt brat...
he often have to tahan mi..
i remember once at bugis..
i flare up at him...
den i juz walked away.
he called mi several times but i ignored him.
coz i nt happy ma...
den i guess he oso nt happy la..
he turn the other way round and walked away.
so we went our seperate ways..
but now ok lo.
i nt angry with him liao la..
tt day he said quite alot of sorries lo..
haha..
den he said smth tt..
tt i can still remember now..
" you know its extremely fustrating whenever you get angry for no apparent reason. i really dun know hw to handle. "

WAHAHHAA...
lol.
but now hor.
i tink he alot smarter le.
if i ever get mad or smth.
he would:
EITHER - let mi juz continue to throw my tantrums and totally dun talk to mi during tt period.. he will wait until i cool down lo..
OR - say sorry
OR - pat my head.
depending on the situation bahx.

and ya..
he is more observant too la..
i dun know hw he knows..
but if he had said smth tt makes mi nt happy...
he stop talking about tt thing..
paused awhile..
and he will say.. "u nt happy ah?"
obviously..
i will say.. "what do you tink?"
den he start explaining again and again and of coz he says sorry..

i nv tell him this..
but really...
i feels tt it seems like he really have done quite alot of things for mi..
yet..
all i have done for him is..
er..
make him go out wif mi..
or talk to him while he does his stuff (causing him to have to multi-task)
haha..
some more i know he really cares bout mi lo..
but i dun wanna admit to tt..
and i always ask him "do you even care about mi?"
wen actually deep down inside i know he does...

i used to tell him "i dun care la. i want it la."
now he copy mi lo..
he says smth like tt "i dun care. what i say is final. dun argue."
OMG.
i can sue him for copying mi.

many a times i wanna go there and wait for him lo..
but i lazy go..
so until now.
i nv actually wen there to wait for him.
instead i stay at hm. and wen he is done den we go out.
haha..

2008-10-10T00:24:00.002+08:00
The guy who love you, can't tell you the reason why he love you. he only knew that, in his eyes, you are the only one

The guy who love you, actually always make you mad, but he do never know what stupid thing did he done, as everything he done, is for your own good.

The guy who love you, seldom praise you , but in his heart, you are the best, only he know it,

The guy who love you, will scold or complaint if you didn't reply his message but not others, because he cares.

The guy who love you , Only drop his tears in front of you, when you try to wipe his tears, you are touching his heart , the heart which beat for you.

The guy who love you , will remember every word u said , even its accidentally. and he will use the word always at the nick of time.

The guy who love you, will not give any promise that easily, because they don't want to break the promise, they want you to believe him and they want to give you the happiest and safest life ever after.

The guy who love you, always tell you not to think too much, because they already plan it for you, he want to give u the best life in the future, he want to give you a suprise, belive him that he can do it.

The guy who love you, maybe can't remember special occasion like somekind of anniversary, but , he do know that, every second he live, he's loving you, no matter what day is today

The guy who love you, won't said " i love you" that easily, because everything he done for you is showing that he love you already, but only he will tell the word at the special situation, because he dun wan u to misunderstand, he want u to know that he love you.

The guy who really love you, will feel that, sometimes, something hav to tell for only once, because he thought that u might already understand him, if talk so much, he will feel that theres nothing you will cherish.

The guy who love you, will go to airport to fetch you, he won't carry a bunch a rose and call you darling like what you expect. but he will carry your luggage and ask you " why are you becoming that thin within two days?" with his sincere heart.

The boy who love you, will listen quietly to you, when you are mad, and when you finished, he will said, you still got class tomorrow, sleep earlier with smile.

The boy who love you, don't know that whether he should call you when you are angry, but he will sent a message to you after few hours, if you ask him why he call that late, he will said, when you are angry, my explanation are all rubbish. But when you calm down, my explanation will only really works.

The boy who love you, always call you little girl, but everytime he want to make a big decision, he will first want to hear your advice.

The guy who love you, don't like little toy like teddy bear, but he will always put the bear you gift him at his bed.

The guy who love you, while quarelling, he will apologize uncontrollably, althought you are the one who's wrong, and later, he will sent a message to you with " baby, actually you know its your fault, you know it urself "

The guy who love you, while really miss you, he will want to buy a bunch of rose and wait you stupidly under your apartment. but he never knows , what he bought is daisy, but doesn't matter, because in his heart, that's roses.

The guy who love you, seldom said sweet words, but you know, his kisses already transfer his all passion to you.

The guy who love you , if he can't always see you, he will try to make himself busy, for not to have any time to remember you, because he knew, if he did, he will keep on missing you until he could do nothing.

2008-10-09T23:19:00.002+08:00
LOVE IS WHEN u wake up, he is already on ur
mind.

LOVE IS WHEN u lost ur heart, he is all that u can
find.

LOVE IS WHEN u want 2 be the 1 to dry his eyes

LOVE IS WHEN u see the truth in everyone of his
lies.

LOVE IS WHEN u want to listen to all his whims
and woes.

LOVE IS WHEN u want him to take care
everywhere he goes.

LOVE IS WHEN he calls u, ur heart goes a flutter..

LOVE IS WHEN u see him; "I LOVE HIM", u
silently shutter.

LOVE IS WHEN u tell the world that u love him so.

LOVE IS WHEN u have told the world but "HE"
does not know.

LOVE IS WHEN ur eyes light up when u see him
there.

2008-10-01T20:25:00.001+08:00
i know i always tell him it...

but really la...

最愛の人。私のすべてである ❤
=D

2008-09-28T18:22:00.001+08:00
this entry is for LIYAN!

heys!
liyan arhx..
u set a day.. we go out lo..
ps lo..

haii..

really sorry...

2008-09-28T18:04:00.002+08:00
i nv like using the word 'love'

its er..
i dun know..
maybe probably the word 'love' is too in depth..

LOVE is not like LIKE which have many differentiation...
LOVE is not a word tt can be said so casually..

tt ' i love you ' is meant for tt special some1..

u said u love mi long ago?
hw true is tt?
hw could you fake those lies..

long ago? how long ago?

u liar..
tt 'i love you' makes mi wanna puke...

do u fucking know how in depth and serious tt 3 words mean?

it was thanks to you i nearly i lost a friend.
u said u were tinking of mi while being with her...
WTF...
like i will believe you...

i nv liked you at all.
and frankly..
mi n u.. nah.. impossible..
if u still wanna cont tt *puking* stuff...
u are gonna get it from him..
he aint gonna let u off..

im warning you!

2008-09-19T23:40:00.017+08:00

MY BEST PRESENT
~the teddy bear given by him =)

[ tt blue box present.. was nt frm him la..
but my mum...
she bought it frm tiffany & co. ]
seriously! i wanna thank him..
tt bear is super huggable...
beri nice to hug lo...
i hug it every nite b4 i slp...
and coz my bed is super big..
tt STUPID bear he gave mi..
is lying on one WHOLE pillow beside mi...
and i wanna tell him...
im serious about wad i said..
dun make mi cry..
or.. i will flood the bear with my tears...
dun make mi angry...
or.. i will beat it 1 thousand times till the wool come out..
dun leave mi..
or.. i will throw the bear away..

and u know ma..
u r the best...
i guess it really seems u r my EVERYTHING..

2008-09-19T23:40:00.016+08:00

ling... remember tt time u said...
haha...
yups.. i guess i really prefer a guy's brain to looks..

You Go For Brains!

You want a guy with a big... brain.

And of course it would be nice if he were a total hottie, but you're not counting on it.

What's on the inside is what counts for you. (Besides, you can always change the outside later!)

Do You Go For A Guy's Brains or Body?

2008-09-19T23:40:00.015+08:00

WAKAKAKAKAKKA...
so true!!!
haha!!

What These Roses Say About You

You are a classic romantic who believes in true love.

You often experience deep emotions and feel warmth toward almost everyone.

You are a bundle of positive feelings and sweetness.

What Do The Flowers You Pick Say About You?

2008-09-19T23:40:00.012+08:00

haha!!!
may and ling! (the 2 pple who always say im violent)
you read this anot?

There's Not a Violent Bone in Your Body

You're cool and collected, even when someone really gets under your skin.

And while you don't blow up when you're angry, you know how to express your anger calmly.

You don't bottle emotions up or let them get out of control. For you, violence would never be an option.

Could You Be Violent?

2008-09-19T23:40:00.010+08:00

WAHAHAHHAHA....
am i pro or wad??
hahaha....

DARLING... u read this!
hmph!
hope u understand!
XD
WAHAHHAHAHAHA...

even though.. i know... this is abit.. er... weird!

You Can Make 78% of Your Crushes Fall in Love With You

Your seduction skills are practically legendary. You know how to close the deal.

Just don't let someone you're really into get the better of you!

As long as you keep up your end of the flirting game, you'll get the prize at the end.

Can You Make Anyone Fall in Love With You?

2008-09-19T23:40:00.004+08:00
AHHHHH....

yvonne.. i wanna play pool wif u all la..
but...
sorry...

may.. i wanna go out wif u all la...
but...
sorry...

2008-09-19T23:40:00.002+08:00
juz watch mfbbt... hai..

its really diff frm last time..
hai...

2008-09-19T23:40:00.001+08:00

FUCK!

been hearing *LET IT GO* this song plenty of times..
hmm...

wonder y i dint like it b4..

maybe coz..
tt song shows how im feeling right now!

You need to get if he don't wanna
Love you the right way he ain't gonna
It ain't where he's at its where he
Where he wanna be

(Huh huh oOoh)
(Huh huh oOoh)
(Huh huh oOoh)
(Huh huh)

[Missy Elliott]
(I don't want yo man)
Cause I got it like that
But it ain't even gotta be like that
(Eh he he he he)
Yo man he be callin me back
Cause see I'm fine and a matter of fact
(Eh he he he he)
He asked how I do dat dat
Fit my jeans over baby fat
Listen
I don't know the type of tricks he playin
But I should warn you I don't want ya man

[Keyshia Cole]
I understand why you wanna try
Make him stay home late at night
But if wanna go he'll be gone no lie
I can't explain how many times I tried
How many times I cried
Thinkin about mine and where he might be
Remember when I gave everything I got
Couldn't get deep down inside
How ya love someone who didn't love me

[Hook 1]
But now I get if he don't wanna
Love you the right way he ain't gonna
It ain't where he's at it's where he
Where he wanna be

[Chorus]
If he ain't gonna love you
The way he should
Then let it go
If he ain't gonna treat you
The way he should
Then let it go

If he ain't gonna love you
The way he should
Then let it go
If he ain't gonna treat you
The way he should
Then let it go

[Missy Elliott]
When this song come on in the club
They gon be like
Damn that's hot
And when they play it in they car
They gon drop they tops like
Damn that's hot
They gon mix it wit Biggie "It was all a dream" like
Damn that's hot
Me and Keyshia won't stop
Til the tick don't tock like
Damn that's hot

[Keyshia Cole]
Now understand why I take my time
Cause you come wit alibis
Trynna get me to see thats where you trynna be
But I dont want yo man
Yo mans been callin me
Trynna get me to see
That he wants me to be wit him
But he ain't the one for me
And if you only knew
You would
Do what you had to
Finally see that

[Hook 2]
You need to get if he don't wanna
Love you the right way he ain't gonna
It ain't where he's at its where he
Where he wanna be

[Chorus]
If he ain't gonna love you
The way he should
Then let it go
If he ain't gonna treat you
The way he should
Then let it go

If he ain't gonna love you
The way he should
Then let it go
If he ain't gonna treat you
The way he should
Then let it go

[Lil Kim]
Here's a little lesson Lil Kim don't stress em
Kick em all straight to the curb like Beckham
Broke up wit my Ex he wit her for now but
Little do she know she just a rebound
Callin my phone she so outta pocket
I been there before o'girl you need to stop it
Trickin on me when he tell you he ain't got it
You don't get the picture
My pictures in his wallet
Never ever thought I would leave him alone
But I let a dog roam now he wanna come home
But I
Don't trust him
Though I still love him
No longer want him
Lookin at his cousin
Kinda buzzin
Loose off the goose
Got him on a chase like cranberry juice
When he's wit you he's wishin it was me
You might be where he's at but I'm where
He wanna be (Baby Baby!)

Let It Go
Let It Go Let It Go Let It Go
Let It Go Let It Go Let It Go
Let It Go Let It Go Let It Go

[Chorus]
If he ain't gonna love you
The way he should
Then let it go
If he ain't gonna treat you
The way he should
Then let it go

If he ain't gonna love you
The way he should
Then let it go
And if he ain't gonna treat you
The way he should
Then let it go

[Missy Elliott]
When this song come on in the club
They gon be like
Damn that's hot
And when they play it in they car
They gon drop they tops like
Damn that's hot
They gon mix it wit Biggie "It was all a dream" like
Damn that's hot
Me Kim and Keyshia don't stop
Til the tick don't tock like
Damn that's hot

2008-09-18T22:38:00.001+08:00

You Are 52% Interesting

You are a fairly interesting person. Many people find you to be intriguing.

You have a dynamic, adventurous life... a life that others envy.

You are genuinely interested in and open to the world.

You love making new friends, and you're always up for an unusual experience.

Like everyone else, you can get a bit boring from time to time. That's normal.

But unlike everyone else, you can pull yourself out of a rut. You don't stay boring for long.

Are You Boring or Interesting?

2008-09-18T22:35:00.000+08:00

Your Love Score Is: 70

It's love, but it's definitely not ideal. Your relationship brings a lot of heartache too.

On an average day, you are happy and content with your partner. But there are a lot of problems under the surface.

Maybe your relationship has a lot of baggage. Or maybe you don't communicate with each other as well as you could.

Either way, you both have a bit of resentment toward one another... whether you'll admit it or not.

You can get the love you want. It may be possible in this relationship, but there are no guarantees.

Do your best to listen more, communicate better, and compromise as much as you can. Give it your best before you give up.

Are You in Love?

2008-09-18T21:04:00.003+08:00

SEPT 14

acc him go zoo lo..

*my ticket*

*my camera batt flat.. so this pic is taken by my hp*
the rest of pics below are taken by my camera..

the ostrich and the emu..
we were taking fotos of the emu..
one lady was telling her daughter.. "see.. that is the ostrich"
den..
he told mi..
tt is emu.. not ostrich hor...

haha..
lol...
he really treat mi like small girl..

P.S.. the ostrich pic was taken frm the net.. and shown here for comparision.

AND finally..
* the pic of the day! *

2008-09-17T21:58:00.000+08:00

SEPT 13
our day :)
its been a long time since i met the 2 of them..
a tiring day to say..
we met at city hall..
den went suntec..
den bugis..
den PS..
den far east..
den wisma..
WOO..
super tiring..

we had dinner at BREEKS ~~AGAIN~~

as u can see..
farah is shouting for the menu..
coz no1 seems to realize we were there!

sab is bz finding her cherry...
and im eating my cherry to make her jealous!

and finally..
8 neoprints to end our day!!!!

2008-09-16T16:03:00.000+08:00

Sept 12

met him at city hall..
went to eat jack's place..
walked alot..
thx to him..
and i really wanna thank him lots..
really really happy..
he makes mi happy..
and i know his heart probably aching..
coz he spent alot on my bday..
alot of $..
alot of time...
thank you =)

*OUR MEAL*

*lobster soup*

*Fresh Oyster*

*his steak*

he really beri sweet...
i was like.
i want eat steak!
i dun care...
den he let mi lo..

i dint know wad was nice n stuff..
so all i did wad take fotos of him..
while he ordered the food..
and wad he tinks i like...

after ordering..

he said.. in case you dun like steak..
i oso ordered fish.. you can eat mine..

but i dint..
coz..
i love it...

and...
haha..
mine steak is more ex den his..
and oso nicer den his..

WAHAHAHAHHA

*mine steak*

he wanted a ps3..
but i no $..
so..
this picture is for him...

2008-09-15T15:06:00.000+08:00

Sept 11

went out wif XM to watch BOF.. boys over flowers...

i have been bugging darling to watch it wif mi...
but he dun wan...
hai..

den i went into depression lo..
and he still dun care...
hai...

tt LOUSY darling.

anyway! super thx to XM..
she say she wanna watch..
haha..
she saved mi frm depression..

=)
*BELOW are the pics i have taken during our dinner at charcoal.. (my dad's treat)*

*appitizer*

*mine drink (some lychee cocktail)*

*mine soup*

*mine main course (fish)*

*mine dessert*

2008-09-14T21:05:00.000+08:00

SEPT 10
went out in the last afternoon to play badminton wif yvonne they all..
they surprised mi wif a cake and a present =)
so sweet of them...
actually..
i dint expect them to be so sweet..
lol..
anyway...
i really couldn't eat dinner wif them coz i was meeting may they all..
me n jing xian left at 6..
i tot i wun be late de lo..
but in the end..
hai..
ate dinner at lau pa sat..
lol..
seriously..
as far as i could remember..
i nv ate there b4..
i seriously hate those smokey place..
tt's y..
if possible..
i rather avoid hawker centre, markets..
i dun like my hair, clothes to smell..

hah!
im nt being spoilt la..
but i really dun like smokey stuffy place...

and frankly..
unless really no choice..
i rather eat at places wif aircon =)

*below are the pics i have taken*
super duper thank you...
yvonne, michelle... they all =)
and.. i love the present too..

ling.. you make mi wanna punch ur face!
may.. im gonna gib this pic to him!

haha.. thx you all..
ling, may, may, pris, val, and jy...
THANK YOU!
i had fun

2008-09-09T00:50:00.001+08:00
heard this song b4...

~~~ dun say u love mi... u dun even know mi...

yups... tt song has been on my mind lots..
dun know y lo...

2008-09-05T00:28:00.002+08:00
i wanna watch HYD movie... who wan watch with mi?

tell u a SECRET...

my bday is coming!!!!

OMG!

super happy...

tt silly boy is still wondering wad to buy for mi for mi bday!!!

WAHAHAHAH...

continue thinking...

im QUITE easy to please...

haha...

im so currently hooked on playing games...

haha...

thx to him...

i actually played continuously 3 day a game!

wooohooo..

coz he no time acc mi tok or even go out...

wahaha...

beginning , quite fun..

den...

boring le..

but ok la..

at least i spent 3 days playing a game lo..

based on wad he said..

my attention span on an object is short...

so i wun last long on anything...

quite true =)

based on the fact..

i gt bored juz playing maple for a day lo...

haha...

but nt true oso...

my attention span on him..

is quite long lo...

ahahaha...

i actually packed my days with alot of things lo...

gt games..

tuning in to mfbbt..

watch my 2 taiwan drama..

alot of things =)

OH YA..

did i mentioned?

he lent mi his psp play...

and he even put games he tinks tt will suit mi lo...

so kind of him la...

hahaa...

but hor..

actually..

he is EVIL...

he dun wan buy mi a PSP for my bday!

he said..

i wun last long with a psp..

coz " MY ATTENTION SPAN is short "

so he let mi play his..

HMPH!

cant wait for my bday...

i can finally tell him straight!

I AM NINETEEN YEARS OLD.

SAME AGE AS YOU LO!

DUN CALL MI SMALL GIRL!

arghhhh!

wahaha... i cant wait for tt day to come..
but frankly..
i tink i will get less bday wishes this year..
coz..
i lost quite alot of friends this year...
haiz...

i juz hope those who read this..
will bother to sms mi a happy bday on my bday...

2008-09-05T00:12:00.002+08:00
blame mi...
i know its my fault...

i just lack tt courage to tell them to stop calling mi...
i dun know hw to say...

but wen u arent around mi..
they were there for mi...
they acc mi...
call mi every nite and tok to mi...

but..
now..
i tok to u every nite...
everyday...
its became a habit...

and hw did i treat them...
i ignored all their calls...
i dint wanna reply their sms...

i know...
i could go out with them...
afterall fren ma..
somemore... they pay everything..
i dun nid spent a cent!
wad could i lose?
but...
i dun wanna give them hope..
i dun wanna let them tink otherwise..
but...
i dun wanna hurt their feelings...
but...
i feel grossed up wen they sms mi...
telling mi hw much he misses mi...
but...
i dun wanna break his heart...

im in trouble...
i played tt game...
and now i tink have lost..

maybe..
i should i have just told them i have a bf and asked them to scram!
WAHHAHAHAHAHA...

but...
i dun know...
im in trouble...

u gotta help mi..
u 'defeated' one of them...
3 more to go...
jia yous!

2008-09-04T23:50:00.002+08:00

PICS OF YESTERDAY !

sushi = expensive and nt filling
should have eaten the buffet..
more worth bahx...

2008-08-31T00:06:00.002+08:00
im glad he is beginning to show mi more n more care.

haha..

am i happy?

OF COURSE!

he is slowly.. and more surly showing mi how much he care about mi..
and how much i mean to him...

2008-08-30T23:10:00.003+08:00
" ALL GIRLS MUST PASS NAPFA "

arghhhh... how to pass la...
sab... we every morning go jogging la..

=)

2008-08-28T14:47:00.003+08:00
im broke...
really broke lo..

treat darling eat mos burger on tues...
hai..
den on wed treat darling eat burger king...
(but.. eventually.. out of our bill of $14.. i only paid.. $9)
my darling is broke now!

y?
coz...
he bought tt dragon thingy..
den also always take cab to sch n stuff..

haiz..
i had to treat him lo...
coz i know..
if its mi tts broke..
he will treat mi too..

juz like last time wen i told him im broke..
no $ eat lunch..
he took out 4 bucks..
den say...
nah.. ur pocket $..
dun anyhow spent..

haahaa...
tt boy!

told to him yst on the fone...

mi: darling.. i wanna ask u smth.. u promise u wun angry..
him: wad?
mi: wad kinda girl do u tink **** will like?
him: u lo...
mi: y?
him: coz he is always looking at u ma..
mi: hahaha.. darling u are beri cute leii..

yeps..
i know he is looking at mi most of the time..
=)
and i admit..
i used to like him..
but now..
we nv tok..
so... tt feelings is gone...

2008-08-28T14:40:00.002+08:00

that is the place we went..
and spent $109.1

never hear of it?
hmmm...
bugis hab one...
its like...
erm...
by jack's place lo...

2008-08-25T20:57:00.002+08:00

i had to blurr my pic.. coz its really not nice...
he dun know hw take photos lo...

*no comments*

i love being treated like a princess..
so...
of coz..
he peeled the prawn for mi..
took the meat of the crayfish n lobster for mi...

our total end of the day expenses = $122.1

alot lo... the food itself already $109.1
den add coffee... $ 13

so... end up $122.1

2008-08-25T20:43:00.003+08:00

A PICTURE IS WORTH A THOUSAND WORDS...

LET THIS PICTURES DO THE TALKING..

2008-08-22T22:13:00.001+08:00
boy arhx...

i tink i have probably really fallen 4 u le..
seriously u have been on my mind lots...

im trying to be tt girl i tot u will like..
but u told mi...
tt passive n passive no use..
nid passive n aggressive...

hmmm...
since u r aggressive...
den i shall be passive...
coz like wad u say...
aggressive n aggressive cannot tgt...

thus...
i conclude tt..
opposite poles attract...

and all i wan now is to be with u...
after all im yanyu..
there is nothing i cant do...
as long as i try...

2008-08-21T23:49:00.002+08:00
i wun reconcile wif u..

even if i angry/ quarrel wif darling..
or...
even if darling leaves mi..
or...
even if darling is no longer beside mi...

i wun reconcile wif u..
i dun wan the history to repeat its self...
we are over...
stop disturbing mi liao le lo...

2008-08-19T23:56:00.003+08:00
im angry with him..
super super not happy..

wth...
im seriously getting sick of you!

FUCK la..
u dun care about mi..
many other pple will !

the reason y ur one word can make mi so mad and angry..
is coz u mean smth to mi...
so every word u say is important and nt to be taken lightly..
even though.. those are anger words!

i hate you for failing to understand mi even better!
i hate you for nt being able to say wad u really wanna say!
i hate you for making mi mad..

i swear..
i will heck care about everything about u!

tt date on the 21.. cancelled!
i dun wanna see you!
tt present.. im gonna throw away!

2008-08-18T11:54:00.002+08:00

i know we aren't beautiful people...
but tt love we share..
is the most beautiful thing on earth..

----------------------

finally.. a day i can spent the whole day at hm...
my last day of attachment 15 aug...
im tired...
working 7 days a wk is exhausting..
no1 seems to understand mi..
no1 seems to know...

some pple seems to tink i ask for it..
y work wen ur parents give you $?

i dun wanna take my parents $..
tt feeling is horrible..
tt is their hard earn $$..
if i take it and spent on my leisure stuff..
i feel guilty..
if i wanna spent i rather spent the $ i work hard and earn for..
since young..
whenever i need $..
i reach my hand out..
my dad sure gives mi $..

my fren often say..
wth..
u work so hard..
u now 19 only leii..
enjoy 1st la...

haha..
u are right im 19 le leii..
old enuff to work le lo..
i dun wanna raise my hand out and ask for $ like my bro n sis le..

--------------------------------

remember our date on aug 21..
and..
i bought smth for u..

i tink u should like it alot..
coz u mention b4..
u wanted it..
even though u probably mentioned it casually..

2008-08-17T18:33:00.002+08:00
i trying..
and trying really hard not to be so dependent on u...

some how...
being dependent on u has already been a habit to mi...
i have known u for like few mths...
its amazing things turn out this way...

im really trying and trying very hard not to tok to u on the fone every night...
coz i know ur bill has already exceeded every mth..
and my bill has also exceeded every mth too =)
haha...

i know i said i wanna go out wif u at least once a wk..
but...
hmmmm....
i dun know...
i hope i will be able to find time for u...
and i hope u will nt be sick and able to go out with mi...

den.. next time...
we wun have to tok on the fone so often...

2008-08-16T23:08:00.004+08:00
i know i know...

im dependent on u...

i oso dun know y lo..
u know wad?

i really scared one day u might leave mi...
maybe for NS..
or sm things else...

u know y?
coz good things nv last...

im scared now...
i wanna by ur side always...

baby...
im in love with you...

________________________________

my bday is coming soon...
darling...
i know u having ur attachment at tt time...
but make tt day free for mi yeah?

i wanna spent the entire evening cum night with you...
we go see sunset tgt leii...
i beri long nv see sunset liao...

i only wanna spent tt day with you =)

only you...

darling...
if one day...
u ever chance upon my blog n see wad i have written..
i believe u will probably,
smile...
den say...
tt little girl...
she is like a 9 yr old girl...

and darling...
u know ma?
i said it be4 le..
if im a 9 yrs old girl..
den i dun wanna grow up...
coz i wan u..
to take care of mi forever...
wahahha...

darling.
u said le..
wen ur sch end..
u will care about mi the way i wan u to...
and not in ur own way...
i can feel tt u have changed a little..
but tt habit of being weird..
is still there...

2008-08-14T16:17:00.002+08:00
Love should be beautiful,
love should be nice, comfortable and
one should feel happy.

in the past i was shallow...
i was like..
dreaming of my bai ma wang zi..
hmmmm
he muz be :
- tall,
- tan,
- macho,
- handsome,
- cute,
- have dimples wen he smile,
- smart
- super rich
- have sense of humor
- shy

ermmm.... alot and alot stuff la...

woot... i know..
where in this world will i be able to find such a perfect guy like him la...
IMPOSSIBLE!

haha...

maybe i was young n naive and shallow and unrealistic...
i guess now,
all i wan is a guy that can protect mi,
he mux love mi for who i am,
mux care for mi,
always be there for mi,
and muz have at least some standards la...
maybe nt gd looking.. but abit gd looking..
muz make mi laugh, make mi smile...
most importantly..
he muz be smart =)

oh ya... he mux be able to tahan mi too...
muz rang mi.. but nt always rang mi..
he mux be able to say no to mi at the rite time.
he muz understand mi,
and know wad i wan.

tt my prince charming =)

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